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7:20pm: good mornin beautiful
i havent stepped outa the house since friday night. i have been so icky sick its been gross.. i get these big hot flashes and i got one while i was in the bath and so the bath is hot and then my bodys just burning up.. i wanted to roll around in the snow right then.. but u no that would'nt be too good fer the old germs livin in me. i think ill tuff er out for school tomorrow.. we'll see how this night goes i guess. christmas is coming so soon.. i can't wait. i feel like im not gonna have enough cash for the presents to go around who i need to buy for so like that kinda sucks. maybe i'll take out a loan from ma n pa for their gift haha. its kinda sad how i ask for money to buy their christmas gift.. cuz they r buying it for themselves they jsut don't know what they are getting.

9:38am: its all in my head
home havin a headache... its pretty boring.. i gotta go clean up some garbage that a dog got into last night soon which sucks because its cold and im not wearing socks. and plus i dont want to touch garbage thats gross. i can not wait for christmas i am so freakin excited i cud pee myself. yesterday instead of getting a poutine with coffee i got a ceaser salad!! haha im goin healthy boys and girls/.. that doesnt say much about how i ate at A&W for lunch but PUHLEEEZE! i havent eaten there for a good while alright so bite me poof im still healthy! haha ok... so im not really a punkish ska person but this song is just fun as a barrel of monkeys! i can tell what they're saying but yay!! hahaha.... woah tylennoll kickin in woo hoo!!! yesterday my sister and harley talked on the phone about me and it was confusing.. because when she gave me the phone she forgot to ask him something so they used codes and i had to tell each of them what the other was saying... it was weird cuz i cant even figure out what they r getting me from being right there.. thats slow for ya! haha but im gonna go do that garbage i believe.. plus my songs over hahaha.... have a good day at school kids. dont talk to strangers and towels from the dryer are the best feeling ever.


kisses

3:06pm: hold up wait a minute let us put some drum in it
my weekend seemed so extra long. considering it was and all... plan A i was supposed to go see harley which would have been SOOOO fun like crazy. but that plan fell thru and shit so friday after i dyed my hair me and melissa headed up to stoon. we went shopping and didnt even get lost. then we went back to brits, out for BP'S and drank in the hottub. it was a boring night and her roommates boyfriend thought we were lesbians and loved it haha. then we came home saturday nightish and i had 6 beer left from friday so i called H and got really drunk on the phone cuz i forgotten to eat when i got home hahaha so i slurred and stumbled all over everything hahahaha. it was funny! today i watched drumline and that movies so damn good i love it. ive been so cold today too i dont think my parents realize there is SNOW on the ground so whatever.

i wish i had some cucumbers right now

and i found a new love of wine, red or white either one is great

hot tubs r fun unless they r slimy

that remind me i have to do my nails.
tootles

9:13pm: rainin broken hearts
i like the way u used to hold me

i hate how time flies i still think back sometimes bout

falling to sleep wearing ur shirt cuz it smells so sweet

i cud go on so many things i miss now that ur gone

ur love oh yes i always liked that best

5:36pm: its a ghetto fairytale..
yellow.. im so damn tired.. ever since saturday night i havent gotten good sleep and it sucks. and then last night i HAD to study so hard for chem test but i hadda drive nicola home so thats n hour of missing it and i had soo much other homework i only got like 20 minutes of studying in.. i hope i did it right cuz god damn im not gonna pass if i dont pull up my socks haha and in bio we got our tests back i got a fucking 49% and holy shit that sucks.. thats with an extra bonus 2 marks too.. i fail at that class hard. and i always fall asleep in it too.. so like ima need to drink coffee at lunch or take some caffene pills. that spelling doesnt look right.. well whatever i aint no spelling bee champ so. coffee was soo fun today i saw my baby chayla like ceilidh's baby from work and ooo god i love her to death shes the cutest thing ever!!! and than gerskis little sister bailey came and she was soo cute.. she told so many weird non funny jokes but i laughed cuz she was just so damn cute!! and then me and lane hada conversation bout making babies but not making babies haha! lane that crazy fuck! we have so many road trips lined up for feb break and summer and stuff its insane... like manitoba to visit h curl and ambers friends, melville to see my old friends, alberta to see shane, stoon to see brit.. just crazay!!!! but im gon go eat some pizza!! ola

9:26pm: heres a little advice for you
my gawd damn sister wont get off le phoneski.. so i figure id do a lil of this cuz i gave her 10 minutes.. and oh dear if shes longer than that im gon have to yell a lil.
so my heart hurts lately.. like well maybe not my heart but my chest area has pains lately and oh god it hruts. fuck doing carts in the snow is horrible.. the damn carts wont even go when its clean out but add a lil slush and nasty all over the ground and that makes megan a not happy girl if u no wut im sayin.
i really wanna buy melissa skylark for like a dollar.. cuz they r giving it to hodgens on monday which is a tear and i love that car its the shit. and plus if i buy it.. its a smokin car so no worries bout sprayin er down and id get a cd player in it so we have something to listen to when conversation gets annoying. but then again it sorta sucks and you gotta pump it cuz somedays it doesnt start n what not.
i hope im ungrounded on saturday cuz im hearing thru the grapevine theres a party @ chad vanderbills humble abode and im down for getting some drunk since i have sunday off YEE YEE! i havent been drunk since oflangans party which was actually a really long time and thats sad.
i had a number 7 king today after work cuz i got it from a chicky at work.. it was like not bad but god i hate how kings take at least an hour to smoke.. i just like to not have it last so long cuz there is only so many ways u can drive to get home without hitting ice. and i almost hit a .. uhh.. god damn whats that thing called.. the thing thats yellow and water come out of it .. there ya go fire hydrants.. and it was crazy i was alone and i was laughing a good laugh.. alone.. but still good! muahahaha!
scott was crusty at me today in art but i just wanted to write in kylees yearbook.. i pinched his cheek and he laughed but whatever my poof LOOOOVES ME!! haha
i havent written a big fat entry for a while ski so i think i'll end er here

oh yeah still dont no what im being for halloween and i have to work the day after spook which sucks.. but tylenol will be my best friend i guess! haha

cherrio

8:14pm: find someone to call ur own cuz..
im a nice person.. so i hear haha. i lent poof 20 pence tonight.. but i figure scotts good for that kinda shit and plus he nos id rape him with a tree if he doesnt pay up front! haha
im in a very "beatles" mood lately.. like just fun!! i got the day off from work today so i watched the girl next door (SOOOO GOOOOOD) and then i bathed haha.. it was bubble bath and i loved every second of it.
i was so mad when people were talking bout like karas today cuz i didnt go and i was all awwww woe is me haha.. not throwin a pity party cuz like i can pity myself over that all i want
but im gon make a cd SOOO quick before my pa comes on here..



cherrio

8:11am: i dont no what to tell u
so im grounded.. got home all late n what not this week so i had to miss karas party. that wasnt fun especially cuz i had to drive andrea n her friends there n then leave. im just sick and tired of being alone and having nobody to talk to or hang out with, because everybodys out doing something and its gee.
my stomach is just huge right now cuz the fall supper was tonight and i went maybe a lil too nuts but oh god that macaroni salad rocked my world baby.

i realized last night i LOVE the phone. phone conversations rape real conversations. maybe only once tho not twice. i finished my 500 word short story and its probly like 1000 words. oops. whatever the newt better love the effort and all that gay shit. hes sortve a perv i think but oh well. hes hot. or not. more not that hot.

i want to have some yogurt tho with banans and apples so tweedle dee for nowski.

10:29am: i hate how time flies
im in a very sad mood this whole weekend.. i talked to harley on friday and its weird cuz it like JUST hit me last night hes actually in winnipeg.. and that sucks.. i wont be seeing him for ages it will seem like and i miss him so much. which is kinda corny i bet but i dont care im ca va mal. me renata n melissa r about to go out for breakfast to chat and what not. it will be good but i REALLY can not spend any more money. im cutting myself off completely. even if i shrivle up and die of hunger i dont care i need clothes. i have to work from 1- 630 today and then go to church with my parents from 730-830 which is just so homosexual i dont even no what to say.







"i cud go on so many things i miss now that ur gone.. ur love oh yes i always liked that best."

8:07am: hell yes
its almost 10 after 8 and im already ready fors chool... sorta.. a lil. i had to have soup for breakfast because we didnt have any milk and thats not cool cuz i had already poured my cereal. i hate when that happens. this week is just a crawlin by it seems to me because it feels like it should be saturday morning or something since its always so sunny in the a.m. but NOOO its like on wednesday. at least we're hittin the half way mark i guess. harley called me weird last night and then i was thinking.. yeha i am weird.. but i dont think its a very creepy weird just a very ... UNIQUE weird!! there ya go haha

7:37pm: but he never told anybody
so i got my nails done.. they're adorable haha im really confused about wut to do bout the ol love life lately.. school is soo boring i cud kill someone.. and my god some people and their attitudes lately have been driving me up the wall!!!!!! i just wanna hit em and be like k shut the fuk up its not as bad as it seems. im making kd right now.. and im grounded which i do NOT understand cuz yeah tis retarded it wasnt even my doings. i feel like just getting so fucked outa mon brain so i can releave some stress from everything. my boss is beoing a whore too.. but on the good side my colds going away thats pretty cool hey. i think im gonna end er cuz my waters boiling.

7:48pm: if u see him...
"loves a bitch unless its forever because it will bite you in the ass or boob" scott taught me that today.. and i totally believe it and i get it n what not. its shitty outside.. and i ate bad chicken n got sick so i hada miss work. i like th rain.. not when its this cold out tho. this yrs gonna be soo different. maybe better diff. maybe not who can say. im kinda excited to not be working tho so thank god school. we'll make it fun i no we will.

4:47pm: almost over now
so i havent done shit all summer... its been so gay. just work and ball but THANK GOD ball is over i was gonna kill someone it was so boring. i got my hair cut today.. it doesnt look to different but i got bangs.. and its blonde now so. we got 5th at summer games. but we had to do everything as a team which was retarded cuz yeah.. my team...when school starts its gonna be fucking sad as shit cuz theres nobody left here it seems and yeah.

9:31am: all we are is alone
this summer has sucked... like a few good parties where ive gotten drunk and done fun things, but good god. i have to work like every fucking day and then when i come all i do is go for a slush or chicken or just a drive with melissa. then i have to be gone for like 4 days in august for summer games which is so not gonna be fun, like im shure yeah blah it will be when im there but i really do not want to go. im setting myself up for shit too that i want sooo bad right.. and i get all pissed off and "why" when it doesnt happen.. which it doesnt.. and probably never will which sucks huge ass. its been oh so cold out to. why isnt it getting hot. i wish things were like they used to be, before it got all weird and changed. i just want to go back.

1:48pm: addictive free blend
i had so much fun last night it was super. me and melissa went fer like the quickest swim ever at the pit round like probly 3ish.. it wasnt that cold so but oh my god when we got out it was horrid. me and melissa had some crazy adventures last night too hahaha holy shit that is just too funny to even put into words. harley and me went for a drive through this field that leads to brent and jesses houses, it was muddy and we were both tanked.. i was pretty not nervous at all but he kept tripping out haha oh harley. my dad was soo pissed that i got home @ 4 hes all blah u r soo grounded and he took my phone.. like fuk him i paid for it and he can lick sack cuz i amNOT grounded. he woke me up at 9 in the morning too and i had to clean my bathroom, downstairs living room, my room, upstairs bathroom, kitchen, and upstairs living room. he helped a bit but then hes like sort these cds in alphabetical order and like i hate the alphabet i have to sing the song everytime i wanna no where a letter is. but oh well at least im awake sorta and yeah maybe i'll nap. my water for my macaronni is boiling tho.. so we'll have a play tomorrow hopefully.

10:49am: wishing she cud find her way home...
my mom and sisters left to go to the lake tody. they wont be back untill sunday so its just me and my dad. he told me i cant go out at all this weekend but no no no, i disagree. i painted my nails white with black dots last night when i watched rocky 5 at melissas.. the movie was not as good as the others but it was still very enjoyable. i have been having prom dreams lately. like dreams im going with ______ and renatas going with ________ and melissa is going with someone but i can never see him in my dream. and we always end up being prom king and queen. its nice! ihave been working so much lately it is insane. like my paycheck will be very good but i dont like doing the work haha. i got in an accident with jesse gee's car... but it was not my fault at all!

10:34am: went to kentucky. i got lucky
so ok melissa n popas birthday bash a roo was sooo fun!! stuff got broken and i lost my shoppers card... then the cops called for me and said " we have something of hers" so i hope its that yay! i like a boy hehehe!! and it is soo hot outside i wanna tan it up all day buit i got chores do to and what.. and kcj me em melissa and my sister and brit might go to tisdale to tan/swim it up IF i can get a van... melissa went for her drivers license today im so nervous for her! i believe in her but we're thinking she might fail.. but thats ok i did too!
im wearing thee cutest outfit right now woo woo!! haha and tyler gave me the rocksy... 1 thru 5 people so yay im totally south pawin it up this week! but im going to do my chores because me.. im very excited to be hot right now with this weather!! yee yee sean paul!! GO MELISSA!!!:)

9:00pm: save a horse ride a cowboy woo woo
my god damn mom is saying that i might have to quit my fucking job because i dont have good marks and that after report cards if the marks all havent gone up then oh well my jobs gone.. but FUCK HER!! she can lick balls for all i care.. and then i said oh well what about summer u want me sleeping till 3 waking up having a smoke going out and drinking every day and shes like no ud have to keep ur job untill the winter and THEN quit it.. fuck her im gonna snap hardcore
on a softer note in done my finals thank god.. but i think i totally bombed my science final which sucks ass cuz im gonna get smacked when my parents find out.
slowpitch was fun today... we lost naturally but what can u expect when steven n lane r hitting each other with their gloves in the outfield and dallas cant throw a pitch OR bend over and get the ball for his life.. but u no it was fun!
im drinking my brains off tomorrow and saturday.. maybe ill drink friday im not even shure.. jesse wants to drink at my house but like last time they did that they were really loud and i clearly wont be telling my mom that they r going to be here and if she finds out ill fucking "have to lose my job" bullshit faggot
but i think im going to go and do whatever because i hear "her" coming.

6:58pm: strong as nails under pressure
ive been so in pain lately.. my back is just oh god hurting!! and also i dont no.. boys r asshole i wanna slap them in the face and be all WHAT! WHAT!! WHAT U WANT! haha itd be funny.. and plus then they'd know how much of assholes they're being

my mom made me babysit kristin tonight.. my dads golfing in the pouring rain... ud think hed come home but meh.. whatever... kov ditched me up old school.. but hwtaver im used to it being how he always does when hes with tyler and tim.. and i guess they hate me.. like i hate tim too cuz hes mean.. but i didnt think me n tay were that much of not friends u no

5:53pm: a smoker that looks up to no1.. wud do anything fer a cold one
ok my god damn hell bitch ass!!! what a fuk head tyler is... he ditches out on kove fer one... is an ass to me yet hangs out wit kcj and is going to tisdale with her tonight... likes fucking 2 yr olds and cock teases from out of town... and has the nerve to say he doesnt like me.. even as a friend.. he can eat shit fer all i care.. im over that shit
also tho i have found a new boy that is actually and old boy who im starting to get all "butterflied-stomach--eyes sparkle--smiling so hard it hurts" around! hehe its fun...
my supper wasnt good.. ceaser salad which actually was superb but the chicken was soo hot oh god!!
but im going to shower le up cuz the grease is dripping...

6:08pm: you seem to move uneasy
so tyler was being the biggest cunt ever today.. and melissa was just laughing right along... it was about me being tag teamed by colby and robert.. but fuk that.. they dont no the story.. nobody does so they can just shove it right up their ass..
ive been soo confused... my best friend likes this guy but lately i have not been able to stop thinking about him. its crazy and i no i can NOT do anything about this because she will be hurt and i will not risk that for anything.
i cant handle being awake right now.. having my brain wander around crazily.. its like i dont want to think these crazy thoughts.. but i cant help it


everytime.i.see.u.in.my.dreams...i.see.ur.face..its.haunting.me...i.guess.i.need.u. baby.

5:43pm: damn u mr mustache!!
well i went to candle saturday real early... got there bout 11 am.... and by 10 pm yeah we were evicted... some CO who thinks hes a real cop was being a giant cock sucker... so yea no... but we ended up crashing @ gordons trailer with peggy n barry haha
i was soooo fuked up... over 15 beer in one day fer me... wow i get drunk off like 6 so thats insane... and i felt it this morning muahaha:) it was soo fun tho
i met this cute guy bryce from gronlid who i met threw wade petterson long time ago.. and we reunited and talked fer soo long... it was awesome.. i scored smokes and beer from pdale lots!!
but im going to go try and lay down because thats all im doing tonight

6:05pm: weep not for the memories
last night i was playing slowpith with the boys team.. and i got on first hey.. then i got just cranked with the ball -line drive- to my wrist... the bone is bruised now and i gotta wear a thingy.. it looks funny.. but at least i didnt cry
tim was fucking talking about my back fat today hey.. like whata cunt.. he acts like such a jackass to me when i ask him something or just if i look in his direction.. but as soon as he want ssomething.. ohh megan im ur best friend etc... he did this to me all last yr and i fell for it.. but fuk it. hes not gonna have any friends if hes always a cunt
im confused right now.. i think i like this person but i dont no if i do.. i dont no either if i shud say something and see what happens incase its bad and we end up fucking up our friendship.. i hate that

u go on.....

4:04pm: 6 minutes fer 6 souls
i went to the dentist today in tisdale.. i got no cavities and the lady said i brush good... but i have to get a root canal on the tooth i chipped whilest under the influence of sr caption morgans white rum... he seems nice but ooo deary no.. i think its gon hurt like a biotch.. i think i like someone but the more i think i do the way way way less i think i dont.. but then io hear about somebody else liking him or him likinmg someone and i get jealous and wonder well the what fuk why cant i have that... its a weird feeling.. i want to go camping wiht the boys on friday but they hate one of my friends and she would probably be driving and such unless she goes to see this guy in lake lenore which i think is sad... i was reading a book today and the book was just about 2 people.. a girl this guy made up.. anbd the guys.. they write letters back and forth to each other.. the guy is either very depressed or very very intouch with his feelings n junk.. hes really deep and its awesome

4:13pm: 2 can dine for 8.99
holy boodan boys... alright theres this girl .. well 2 girls.. but ones my friend and she was annoying the fudge right outa me today.. i thought she was gon getta smack from me gooodness!! haha i wanna go to a n dub tonight so i can get sum mozza burger mmm!! nicola n scott think i am crazay for liking those but psssh! they r the shit i tell ya that mozza goodness

im quittin smoking... fer a few months or so.. im saving up for a car so i need ALL the extra cash i can get :)

will n grace season finale was last night i was soooo sad!!! i m gonna miss those guys! it was soo funny tho.. jack was pulling his crazy shit again being a funny mofo.. and j.lo was on and she made fun of herself soo much!!!

luv u